Well little Deuce, today was the day!
It was your ultrasound day today and we could not have been more excited to see you on the T.V. and get a little glimpse at you. Both your dad and I have had feelings this round as to your gender. It is always a little startling to go into an ultrasound and finally see a forming child growing inside of me. It is also a bit stressful while the technicians take measurements but not really give us any sense of what they mean. All we really want is a healthy, growing baby. Fortunately, from what the technicians could tell us, that seems to be the case. Also, they told us you are a GIRL!
Honestly, I think there are a lot of people predicting and hoping for a girl this go around, me included. I had a little bit of intuition, but mostly just hopes and wishes. I wanted you to be a girl. I really, really did. I think also your dad had an intuition you would be a girl too, but he sort of still wanted a boy. I'll tell you why he wanted a boy, he thinks his family has a boy curse. The last few generations of the Schade line have only had one boy to take on the Schade name. He really wanted to break that streak, I think. However, all that being said, he is also very excited to know you are a girl and is happy to see the changes that will come to our family upon your arrival.
It takes the pressure off of me for sure, now having one of each. In future, if we decided to do this thing again, it really won't matter what happens because we will already have you and your brother. It sounds perfect doesn't it? I just can't stop thinking about it. Girl, girl, GIRL!
Today we also told your grandmas while we were in Park City. Not surprisingly, they both immediately co-purchased a little girl outfit for you while we were shopping. I think you are going to be one spoiled little girl, just like your brother.
Speaking of Blake, he loves talking about his "baby sisser." Honestly, he has no idea what it really means or how his life is going to turn upside down when you are born, but it brings me so much joy knowing that he will be yours and you will be his. Siblings really are the hardest, best part of having a close knit family. Something I hope we can grow to be.
Love you little baby girl!
Mama
Friday, March 28, 2014
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
(Baby Week 17) Tuesday, March 11th 2014
Dear Deuce,
I am 17 going on 18, weeks that is. Wow! Originally it was hard to imagine you were even in there, but now it is getting more and more believable every day. I am getting a belly. Not quite the maternity belly just yet, but a belly none the less. Also, you are moving up a storm in there. I have been feeling your spurts of energy more and more often, something I look forward to actually. Just confirmation that you are in there and growing. I love it!
Today Blake wants a brother boy. I think Papa also wants a brother boy. Sadly though, I am in opposition. I want you to be a girl, because I am still sick. They say each pregnancy is different, but the common consensus is a differing gender can cause more or less morning sickness. So, with your brother as soon as I started the second trimester the sickness stopped. With you however, the queasiness is still going strong. Which has to mean you are a girl, right? I am not going through this extended morning sickness for nothing, right? I guess we will just have to wait and see who is right.
Keep up all the good growing in there little pomegranate. Regardless of you being a boy or a girl, I really want you to be healthy.
I hate to cut this love note short, but your brother needs me right now.
Loves!
Mama
I am 17 going on 18, weeks that is. Wow! Originally it was hard to imagine you were even in there, but now it is getting more and more believable every day. I am getting a belly. Not quite the maternity belly just yet, but a belly none the less. Also, you are moving up a storm in there. I have been feeling your spurts of energy more and more often, something I look forward to actually. Just confirmation that you are in there and growing. I love it!
Today Blake wants a brother boy. I think Papa also wants a brother boy. Sadly though, I am in opposition. I want you to be a girl, because I am still sick. They say each pregnancy is different, but the common consensus is a differing gender can cause more or less morning sickness. So, with your brother as soon as I started the second trimester the sickness stopped. With you however, the queasiness is still going strong. Which has to mean you are a girl, right? I am not going through this extended morning sickness for nothing, right? I guess we will just have to wait and see who is right.
Keep up all the good growing in there little pomegranate. Regardless of you being a boy or a girl, I really want you to be healthy.
I hate to cut this love note short, but your brother needs me right now.
Loves!
Mama
Monday, February 24, 2014
(Baby Week 15) Monday February 24th 2017
Dear Deuce,
I am starting to feel better, I think. The nausea is not so bad these days, and I am getting over my week long cold finally! Your Papa, Brother and I have been down for the count over the last few days and the ease in symptoms has been a much needed change. Also, yay, the weather is perking up too. Hooray for sunshine! Heaven knows I need some of that natural Vitamin D.
Sadly though, despite the nausea, I am gaining weight--which is to be expected, but perhaps not as quickly as I am packing it on right now. I hope with the warmer weather I can get out a little more and start eating a whole lot better. The forecast says three more days of 50 degree weather, so big brother and I might have to take advantage of that, at the very least.
In other news, I think I can feel you every once in a while. I settle into bed and night and just press my hands to my tummy, hoping to disturb you just a little bit so you will twitch and move. Again, you are still pretty small my little avocado, but this mommy can hope.
Love you!
Mama
I am starting to feel better, I think. The nausea is not so bad these days, and I am getting over my week long cold finally! Your Papa, Brother and I have been down for the count over the last few days and the ease in symptoms has been a much needed change. Also, yay, the weather is perking up too. Hooray for sunshine! Heaven knows I need some of that natural Vitamin D.
Sadly though, despite the nausea, I am gaining weight--which is to be expected, but perhaps not as quickly as I am packing it on right now. I hope with the warmer weather I can get out a little more and start eating a whole lot better. The forecast says three more days of 50 degree weather, so big brother and I might have to take advantage of that, at the very least.
In other news, I think I can feel you every once in a while. I settle into bed and night and just press my hands to my tummy, hoping to disturb you just a little bit so you will twitch and move. Again, you are still pretty small my little avocado, but this mommy can hope.
Love you!
Mama
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
(Baby Week 15) Wednesday, February 19th 2014
Dear Little One,
Guess what? Great news! We have a new car. I could jump for joy I am so thrilled with the beauty of an automobile we have. She is a white GMC Terrain that your Grandpa Brant helped us get a honey of a deal on. She has just 4 cylinders and great mileage and boy am I glad to be free to leave the house whenever I want. This Spring and Summer will be full of adventures for us little Deuce.
The new car, I call her Bianca and your Papa asks "why?" I don't understand why he is so adamant about naming vehicles, but when I come up with a name for what I am riding/driving he always looks flummoxed. When he told me we might be getting a new car and what it was, I started thinking about a name, because I knew he would ask me about it. Well, when we did end up picking up the car later that night I immediately told him the name I picked out. "Why?" I don't really have an explanation for that. I just like the name, I like the Rescuers mouse of the same moniker, and she is white. I thought it suited her, but I guess I still need practice. Just you wait until we get to pick out your name! That will be an adventure, for sure.
Well little one, I just thought I would update you on the goings on in this crazy life you are about to join. I love you so much and hope all is going well in there.
Hugs,
Mama
Guess what? Great news! We have a new car. I could jump for joy I am so thrilled with the beauty of an automobile we have. She is a white GMC Terrain that your Grandpa Brant helped us get a honey of a deal on. She has just 4 cylinders and great mileage and boy am I glad to be free to leave the house whenever I want. This Spring and Summer will be full of adventures for us little Deuce.
The new car, I call her Bianca and your Papa asks "why?" I don't understand why he is so adamant about naming vehicles, but when I come up with a name for what I am riding/driving he always looks flummoxed. When he told me we might be getting a new car and what it was, I started thinking about a name, because I knew he would ask me about it. Well, when we did end up picking up the car later that night I immediately told him the name I picked out. "Why?" I don't really have an explanation for that. I just like the name, I like the Rescuers mouse of the same moniker, and she is white. I thought it suited her, but I guess I still need practice. Just you wait until we get to pick out your name! That will be an adventure, for sure.
Well little one, I just thought I would update you on the goings on in this crazy life you are about to join. I love you so much and hope all is going well in there.
Hugs,
Mama
Monday, February 17, 2014
(Baby Week 14) Monday, February 17th 2014
Hello Presidents Day!
And hello second trimester!
We had an early morning appointment today with our favorite doctor. Before going, we dropped off big brother to G.G.'s house and then made way to American Fork. Papa and I were very excited to hear your little heart beat again and make sure everything is trucking along as it should.
Apparently you are now the size of a lemon, or something, and you can even squint. I can only imagine those tiny eyes working inside of me. Its a bit surreal, for sure. You can also suck your thumb, which I can say if you are developing that habit in the womb I am going to try and break it as soon as you are out.
As for me, I am sick with a cold. The whole family is sick in fact. Not fun, I can tell you. But, on the up side, Dr. Willis told me I can use any of the over the counter cold medicines to help with the symptoms. Yay! I will be saying hello to a dose of NyQuil tonight so hopefully I can get sleep. Sleep! That is really all I want right now. Phew, it tiring trying to help you and help my ailing body. I have been super spent the last few days and try to lay down or nap at any chance I get.
Love you,
Mama
And hello second trimester!
We had an early morning appointment today with our favorite doctor. Before going, we dropped off big brother to G.G.'s house and then made way to American Fork. Papa and I were very excited to hear your little heart beat again and make sure everything is trucking along as it should.
Apparently you are now the size of a lemon, or something, and you can even squint. I can only imagine those tiny eyes working inside of me. Its a bit surreal, for sure. You can also suck your thumb, which I can say if you are developing that habit in the womb I am going to try and break it as soon as you are out.
As for me, I am sick with a cold. The whole family is sick in fact. Not fun, I can tell you. But, on the up side, Dr. Willis told me I can use any of the over the counter cold medicines to help with the symptoms. Yay! I will be saying hello to a dose of NyQuil tonight so hopefully I can get sleep. Sleep! That is really all I want right now. Phew, it tiring trying to help you and help my ailing body. I have been super spent the last few days and try to lay down or nap at any chance I get.
Love you,
Mama
Monday, January 27, 2014
(Baby Week 11) Monday, January 27th 2014
My Little Duece,
You are now fully formed, or at least almost from what I gather. You are the size of a fig. You have a heart and organs. Soon your little fists will open and your tooth buds that will later form baby teeth are starting to develop. Even some of your teeny tiny bones are beginning to harden.
I can't believe how much better I am feeling as well. The Doc's meds have really helped, I am sure. It is nice to get closer and closer to the second trimester because that means my tummy will settle and my energy will return. Those two things I was certainly taking for granted and I cannot wait to have them restored! You however are worth every bit of discomfort little one. Your one and a half inch body is an astounding miracle and I am simply in awe all the time.
Well, in other news, your big brother still has no idea about you. Your father and I haven't really tried to share with him what is happening, in fact we haven't shared you with a lot of people quite yet. But that is something I really look forward to. I know he will have no idea what we are talking about, but still it will be nice to help him along and get him excited about your arrival.
Love you lots,
Mama
You are now fully formed, or at least almost from what I gather. You are the size of a fig. You have a heart and organs. Soon your little fists will open and your tooth buds that will later form baby teeth are starting to develop. Even some of your teeny tiny bones are beginning to harden.
I can't believe how much better I am feeling as well. The Doc's meds have really helped, I am sure. It is nice to get closer and closer to the second trimester because that means my tummy will settle and my energy will return. Those two things I was certainly taking for granted and I cannot wait to have them restored! You however are worth every bit of discomfort little one. Your one and a half inch body is an astounding miracle and I am simply in awe all the time.
Well, in other news, your big brother still has no idea about you. Your father and I haven't really tried to share with him what is happening, in fact we haven't shared you with a lot of people quite yet. But that is something I really look forward to. I know he will have no idea what we are talking about, but still it will be nice to help him along and get him excited about your arrival.
Love you lots,
Mama
Monday, January 20, 2014
(Baby Week 10) Monday, December 20th 2013
Well Deuce,
Today we visited our favorite Doc in American Fork, the first official appointment for you. It made me anxious and a little excited too, knowing that we would probably be able to hear your heart beat today. So, your Papa and I dropped your big brother off at G.G's house and headed to the clinic. There were a lot of people in the waiting room and we had to do a bit of waiting ourselves, which did nothing to help me nerves. Finally we were called back.
The nurses helping us today were not the usual, but Aunt Carol was there and passed by the door a few times smiling in at us while we answered the general questions and I had my blood pressure taken. Not long after, Dr. Willis came in. The first thing he said when he walked in the door was, "You're pregnant!" We all smiled and I nodded. Next he got right down to business, figuring out how far along I was. Then, as Aunt Carol passed the door he asked her to grab the Doppler so we could listen for you. Here it was, the part I was anticipating and dreading at the same time. The moment of truth!
They gooped up my tummy and slid the Doppler around a lot. The placenta, growing in there with you, was extremely loud--whooshing and churning. I couldn't hear your little heart beat and kept straining and straining my ears. The Doc could hear you though, he is trained for it. So he kept sliding the Doppler higher and lower, pressing it into my tummy looking for you. Then, after what seemed an eternity, I heard the little thumping of your tiny heart. I exhaled in relief and so did your Papa who was sitting very still in his chair. Later he told me he was holding his breath too, waiting to hear you.
So, as you might imagine, we are overjoyed that things are going well this time. Mommy now has medicine to help with the nausea and you are growing and developing nicely. We love you so much already and are very excited to grow and develop with you over these next months.
Love you little one!
Mama
Today we visited our favorite Doc in American Fork, the first official appointment for you. It made me anxious and a little excited too, knowing that we would probably be able to hear your heart beat today. So, your Papa and I dropped your big brother off at G.G's house and headed to the clinic. There were a lot of people in the waiting room and we had to do a bit of waiting ourselves, which did nothing to help me nerves. Finally we were called back.
The nurses helping us today were not the usual, but Aunt Carol was there and passed by the door a few times smiling in at us while we answered the general questions and I had my blood pressure taken. Not long after, Dr. Willis came in. The first thing he said when he walked in the door was, "You're pregnant!" We all smiled and I nodded. Next he got right down to business, figuring out how far along I was. Then, as Aunt Carol passed the door he asked her to grab the Doppler so we could listen for you. Here it was, the part I was anticipating and dreading at the same time. The moment of truth!
They gooped up my tummy and slid the Doppler around a lot. The placenta, growing in there with you, was extremely loud--whooshing and churning. I couldn't hear your little heart beat and kept straining and straining my ears. The Doc could hear you though, he is trained for it. So he kept sliding the Doppler higher and lower, pressing it into my tummy looking for you. Then, after what seemed an eternity, I heard the little thumping of your tiny heart. I exhaled in relief and so did your Papa who was sitting very still in his chair. Later he told me he was holding his breath too, waiting to hear you.
So, as you might imagine, we are overjoyed that things are going well this time. Mommy now has medicine to help with the nausea and you are growing and developing nicely. We love you so much already and are very excited to grow and develop with you over these next months.
Love you little one!
Mama
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
(Baby Week 7) Tuesday, December 31st 2013
Dear Deuce,
You are the size of a blueberry, in fact probably a little bigger because this is technically the very end of week seven. Wow! I can't believe how much in my life is changing already, because of you little one. Time is going by quickly because of the Holidays and the coming of the New Year. I can't help but imagine what next year will be like for our little family with you as a new addition. It is exciting, to be sure.
One thing, it is getting more and more difficult keeping you a secret. Mommy is sick, very sick and very tired. This is hard to hide--especially because we have been spending so much time with family. My excuse about having a small stomach bug will only last so long. Also, funny the way things work out, but my cousin just announced that they are expecting, baby supposedly due at the end of August. When they told the family I couldn't stop smiling and exchanging knowing glances with your dad. "Ha! Us too!" I wanted to shout, but didn't, because for right now you are just ours.
We love you so, so much. We hope you are growing nicely in there and that everything is working out as it should. Fingers crossed!
Love always,
Mama
You are the size of a blueberry, in fact probably a little bigger because this is technically the very end of week seven. Wow! I can't believe how much in my life is changing already, because of you little one. Time is going by quickly because of the Holidays and the coming of the New Year. I can't help but imagine what next year will be like for our little family with you as a new addition. It is exciting, to be sure.
One thing, it is getting more and more difficult keeping you a secret. Mommy is sick, very sick and very tired. This is hard to hide--especially because we have been spending so much time with family. My excuse about having a small stomach bug will only last so long. Also, funny the way things work out, but my cousin just announced that they are expecting, baby supposedly due at the end of August. When they told the family I couldn't stop smiling and exchanging knowing glances with your dad. "Ha! Us too!" I wanted to shout, but didn't, because for right now you are just ours.
We love you so, so much. We hope you are growing nicely in there and that everything is working out as it should. Fingers crossed!
Love always,
Mama
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
(Baby Week 6) Wednesday, December 18th 2013
Tiny Little Baby,
You are officially the size of a lentil, and though I have no idea what that is I am very happy to know you are growing and evolving. Also I guess your nose, ears, and mouth are starting to form! Holy smokes that is so crazy to think about. I can't even imagine how small they must be right now. Obviously small enough to fit on the face of a lentil. Anyways, it is exciting stuff and I can't wait to see what those little features grow to become.
The symptoms are in full swing for mommy. I get nauseous easily and several times a day. I am tired a lot and hardly motivated to do any work around the house. Just ask your Papa and Big Brother--they will tell you just how messy things are getting. Also, I cannot believe Xmas is coming so soon! Before we know it cousins will be here, presents will be opened, and it will all be over. I will miss the rush of the Holiday season, but at least will have to hope of you to help get me through the bleak of January and February.
Well, good luck growing in there little one. We will be making a appointment to meet with the doctor when you are about 10 weeks, so until then, just keep doing great, and miraculous things in there.
Love you so much,
Mama
You are officially the size of a lentil, and though I have no idea what that is I am very happy to know you are growing and evolving. Also I guess your nose, ears, and mouth are starting to form! Holy smokes that is so crazy to think about. I can't even imagine how small they must be right now. Obviously small enough to fit on the face of a lentil. Anyways, it is exciting stuff and I can't wait to see what those little features grow to become.
The symptoms are in full swing for mommy. I get nauseous easily and several times a day. I am tired a lot and hardly motivated to do any work around the house. Just ask your Papa and Big Brother--they will tell you just how messy things are getting. Also, I cannot believe Xmas is coming so soon! Before we know it cousins will be here, presents will be opened, and it will all be over. I will miss the rush of the Holiday season, but at least will have to hope of you to help get me through the bleak of January and February.
Well, good luck growing in there little one. We will be making a appointment to meet with the doctor when you are about 10 weeks, so until then, just keep doing great, and miraculous things in there.
Love you so much,
Mama
Monday, December 9, 2013
(Baby Week 4 Approx.) Monday, December 9th 2013
Dear Little Bundle,
Well at least we are hoping you are a little spec. We have not confirmed your existence quite yet, but a few things have happened that make your little life very, very possible. So I am writing to you, believing and dreaming and wishing that all will be well and in about 9 months we will be able to meet you and officially welcome you to this world.
Truth be told, I am completely hesitant to begin this little letter writing tradition with you so early. I started one about six months ago for the same reason, the same beginning, the same hoping, and later came back and deleted them all because it didn't go according to plan. At the time, deleting those little notes to my other little spec seemed like the only thing to do. Now though, I wish I had kept them, because I know that experience, no matter how disappointing, is not something that can be so easily erased. It wasn't all bad either.
There was so much good and joy that simply came from believing and hoping. And there was even some good in the difficulty of knowing it wasn't going to work out and going through the process of letting that would-be-baby go. Heartbreaking, but also a sweet strength that prepared me for some other hard things ahead. Which is why I am starting anew with you, little one--with that same hope and love.
You give us such great joy and no matter the ending. This hope is vibrant and real for us right now. I am not likely to publish that hope to the world just yet, but I will file this letter away and make the series known when the time is right, if the time is ever right. We fiercely want you to become a permanent part of this family. We want to make room and make plans for you in our life. We want that real joy to last forever.
So, in short, I just wanted you to know, you are important. Physically, you are only a tiny bundle of cells right now, but you are important. You are important to me, to your father, and to your brother.
Love,
Your New Family
Well at least we are hoping you are a little spec. We have not confirmed your existence quite yet, but a few things have happened that make your little life very, very possible. So I am writing to you, believing and dreaming and wishing that all will be well and in about 9 months we will be able to meet you and officially welcome you to this world.
Truth be told, I am completely hesitant to begin this little letter writing tradition with you so early. I started one about six months ago for the same reason, the same beginning, the same hoping, and later came back and deleted them all because it didn't go according to plan. At the time, deleting those little notes to my other little spec seemed like the only thing to do. Now though, I wish I had kept them, because I know that experience, no matter how disappointing, is not something that can be so easily erased. It wasn't all bad either.
There was so much good and joy that simply came from believing and hoping. And there was even some good in the difficulty of knowing it wasn't going to work out and going through the process of letting that would-be-baby go. Heartbreaking, but also a sweet strength that prepared me for some other hard things ahead. Which is why I am starting anew with you, little one--with that same hope and love.
You give us such great joy and no matter the ending. This hope is vibrant and real for us right now. I am not likely to publish that hope to the world just yet, but I will file this letter away and make the series known when the time is right, if the time is ever right. We fiercely want you to become a permanent part of this family. We want to make room and make plans for you in our life. We want that real joy to last forever.
So, in short, I just wanted you to know, you are important. Physically, you are only a tiny bundle of cells right now, but you are important. You are important to me, to your father, and to your brother.
Love,
Your New Family
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