(Week 34) Monday,
September 12th
My Little Boy,
Today was
another visit to Dr. Willis. The more we see him the more I love him and am so
comforted that he is my doctor. You are going to have one big head, and not
because it is in your genes.
Dr. Willis always leaves me feeling
like I am Queen of the Universe and that I am doing such a good job housing
your little body. Dr. Willis knows how to make me feel strong, comfortable, in
control, and confident that everything will be perfect. The fact is, I do very
little. This amazing miracle is happening almost of its own accord. I try to
eat right and stay active, but those are things I have done my entire life.
Here is how
some of the visit went this time. I sit up on the table and he touches each of
my ankles. “Beautiful ankles.” He grabs a chart and reads the info there.
“Blood pressure of a teenager, perfect.” He tells me to lay back and measures
my belly. “Isn’t that the cutest little belly you have ever seen?” I tell you
baby, he is so great and then goes on to say how cute I was when I was born. He
expects the same for you and I have to agree.
Everything
looks right on track. We have another appointment next month and then will
probably making more and more frequent visits as your time gets a little
closer.
One thing I
have not been taking advantage of is the time when Dr. Willis asks if I have
any questions. This time I made sure to have a couple in mind so that when he
asked me I could have questions answered and get his perspective.
Question 1:
How many people can I have in the delivery room with me?
Answer: As
many as you want to shoehorn in there. This is all about you and your baby and
what you want. This made me smile. I
can either tell them to all gather, or make sure no one comes in because “Dr’s
orders.” Granted I will be there, with some nurses, and then whomever you
choose: Doula, midwife, whatever. I have worked in all kinds of environments.
Truth is I am only there for when things might go wrong, otherwise your body
will do the rest.
My Answer:
Mostly I just want my husband there, your Papa. He is my best friend, by
biggest support, and promises to be a good distraction. Doc says he will make
sure our room is big enough for Papa to “squeeze into.” That made me smile too.
Question 2:
What are your feelings about birthing naturally?
Answer:
Every one is different, but I can tell you that 95% of women decide to use the
epidural. Then, of the five percent remaining several of them have tried to
make me sign a contract to never ever give them an epidural, but the majority
changes their mind. This is because it just hurts to damn bad. His words, not mine. My partner here in
the hospital, I have delivered all of her children naturally and she did just
fine. So really it is up to you and what you want most. If you want to deliver
in a tub, fine. If you want to deliver on a ball, fine. If you want to deliver
standing on your head with a doula circling the room in feathers and maracas,
fine. I will tell you that most women end up delivering in bed. Mostly we just
play it by ear and end up doing what you want, when you want.
My Answer:
Good. I want to try natural, but am not opposed to the epidural if necessary. I
don’t know what it will be like, but want to experience a bit of it if I can.
Sounds crazy, but the truth is you are important and whatever is best for you
is what I will end up doing.
So there
you have it. Two whole questions for the doc. That is how comfortable and
confident I am. This whole things seems real and unreal, close and so far away.
What a ride it has been and the best is yet to come. Only a handful of
appointments left and then I can have you in my arms! I am so looking forward
to it.
Love
Always,
Your
Mama
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