Dear Deuce,
You are the size of a blueberry, in fact probably a little bigger because this is technically the very end of week seven. Wow! I can't believe how much in my life is changing already, because of you little one. Time is going by quickly because of the Holidays and the coming of the New Year. I can't help but imagine what next year will be like for our little family with you as a new addition. It is exciting, to be sure.
One thing, it is getting more and more difficult keeping you a secret. Mommy is sick, very sick and very tired. This is hard to hide--especially because we have been spending so much time with family. My excuse about having a small stomach bug will only last so long. Also, funny the way things work out, but my cousin just announced that they are expecting, baby supposedly due at the end of August. When they told the family I couldn't stop smiling and exchanging knowing glances with your dad. "Ha! Us too!" I wanted to shout, but didn't, because for right now you are just ours.
We love you so, so much. We hope you are growing nicely in there and that everything is working out as it should. Fingers crossed!
Love always,
Mama
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
(Baby Week 6) Wednesday, December 18th 2013
Tiny Little Baby,
You are officially the size of a lentil, and though I have no idea what that is I am very happy to know you are growing and evolving. Also I guess your nose, ears, and mouth are starting to form! Holy smokes that is so crazy to think about. I can't even imagine how small they must be right now. Obviously small enough to fit on the face of a lentil. Anyways, it is exciting stuff and I can't wait to see what those little features grow to become.
The symptoms are in full swing for mommy. I get nauseous easily and several times a day. I am tired a lot and hardly motivated to do any work around the house. Just ask your Papa and Big Brother--they will tell you just how messy things are getting. Also, I cannot believe Xmas is coming so soon! Before we know it cousins will be here, presents will be opened, and it will all be over. I will miss the rush of the Holiday season, but at least will have to hope of you to help get me through the bleak of January and February.
Well, good luck growing in there little one. We will be making a appointment to meet with the doctor when you are about 10 weeks, so until then, just keep doing great, and miraculous things in there.
Love you so much,
Mama
You are officially the size of a lentil, and though I have no idea what that is I am very happy to know you are growing and evolving. Also I guess your nose, ears, and mouth are starting to form! Holy smokes that is so crazy to think about. I can't even imagine how small they must be right now. Obviously small enough to fit on the face of a lentil. Anyways, it is exciting stuff and I can't wait to see what those little features grow to become.
The symptoms are in full swing for mommy. I get nauseous easily and several times a day. I am tired a lot and hardly motivated to do any work around the house. Just ask your Papa and Big Brother--they will tell you just how messy things are getting. Also, I cannot believe Xmas is coming so soon! Before we know it cousins will be here, presents will be opened, and it will all be over. I will miss the rush of the Holiday season, but at least will have to hope of you to help get me through the bleak of January and February.
Well, good luck growing in there little one. We will be making a appointment to meet with the doctor when you are about 10 weeks, so until then, just keep doing great, and miraculous things in there.
Love you so much,
Mama
Monday, December 9, 2013
(Baby Week 4 Approx.) Monday, December 9th 2013
Dear Little Bundle,
Well at least we are hoping you are a little spec. We have not confirmed your existence quite yet, but a few things have happened that make your little life very, very possible. So I am writing to you, believing and dreaming and wishing that all will be well and in about 9 months we will be able to meet you and officially welcome you to this world.
Truth be told, I am completely hesitant to begin this little letter writing tradition with you so early. I started one about six months ago for the same reason, the same beginning, the same hoping, and later came back and deleted them all because it didn't go according to plan. At the time, deleting those little notes to my other little spec seemed like the only thing to do. Now though, I wish I had kept them, because I know that experience, no matter how disappointing, is not something that can be so easily erased. It wasn't all bad either.
There was so much good and joy that simply came from believing and hoping. And there was even some good in the difficulty of knowing it wasn't going to work out and going through the process of letting that would-be-baby go. Heartbreaking, but also a sweet strength that prepared me for some other hard things ahead. Which is why I am starting anew with you, little one--with that same hope and love.
You give us such great joy and no matter the ending. This hope is vibrant and real for us right now. I am not likely to publish that hope to the world just yet, but I will file this letter away and make the series known when the time is right, if the time is ever right. We fiercely want you to become a permanent part of this family. We want to make room and make plans for you in our life. We want that real joy to last forever.
So, in short, I just wanted you to know, you are important. Physically, you are only a tiny bundle of cells right now, but you are important. You are important to me, to your father, and to your brother.
Love,
Your New Family
Well at least we are hoping you are a little spec. We have not confirmed your existence quite yet, but a few things have happened that make your little life very, very possible. So I am writing to you, believing and dreaming and wishing that all will be well and in about 9 months we will be able to meet you and officially welcome you to this world.
Truth be told, I am completely hesitant to begin this little letter writing tradition with you so early. I started one about six months ago for the same reason, the same beginning, the same hoping, and later came back and deleted them all because it didn't go according to plan. At the time, deleting those little notes to my other little spec seemed like the only thing to do. Now though, I wish I had kept them, because I know that experience, no matter how disappointing, is not something that can be so easily erased. It wasn't all bad either.
There was so much good and joy that simply came from believing and hoping. And there was even some good in the difficulty of knowing it wasn't going to work out and going through the process of letting that would-be-baby go. Heartbreaking, but also a sweet strength that prepared me for some other hard things ahead. Which is why I am starting anew with you, little one--with that same hope and love.
You give us such great joy and no matter the ending. This hope is vibrant and real for us right now. I am not likely to publish that hope to the world just yet, but I will file this letter away and make the series known when the time is right, if the time is ever right. We fiercely want you to become a permanent part of this family. We want to make room and make plans for you in our life. We want that real joy to last forever.
So, in short, I just wanted you to know, you are important. Physically, you are only a tiny bundle of cells right now, but you are important. You are important to me, to your father, and to your brother.
Love,
Your New Family
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